A Sad Letter

I wrote this letter with the intention of showing people that some of the situations that they go through have been experienced by other people as well. I will write many letters (some of them personal, others of them are made up situations), just so that you know that you are not alone in your feelings. Others have gone through these things as well. You will get through this. This letter is for anyone who has been chosen second. Someone else is better than you. You've been dropped. Someone else has been put above you and you feel like you have lost the most important person to you. You don't feel good enough. As you read this letter and relate to the feelings being shown, please remember that you are loved. Things will get better. One person not choosing you is not the end of the world. 

I'm sorry. I can't keep on this way. You're my best friend and I love you so much, but I can't keep doing this. Cause I still love you and it sucks cause I want these feelings to go away. I want to move on. I want to talk to you about your relationship and be a good friend but it hurts me so bad. I mean you switched up in an instant. One day you were into me and the next day you had a girlfriend. And it hurts to hear you say “my girl” to someone who isn't me cause that was all I wanted. I'm sorry. I wanna be your friend but it's gonna take some time. I need to move on. Like me and my last boyfriend. We are friends and we had a past. It just took some time for my feelings to go away completely. Yeah, now he wants to get together and be a couple, but I don't want that anymore with him. I want to be your best friend, but after you confessed you had feelings and got me emotionally involved, my feelings can't just go away in a second. It's not that I don't want to talk to you. Cause I do. But you being with someone hurts me. Not being able to get close to you hurts me. Seeing you make better friends with her than me hurts me. And I have to get to a point where I don't hurt anymore. So I'm sorry. It's not your fault. It's mine for getting to invested in the thought of us being something one day. I need some time to realize that that will never happen. I need some time to realize that you aren't and probably never were interested in me like that. So I'm sorry. If you have anything at all to say you can say it but if not, just say bye. This doesn't mean you can't come to me when you need someone to talk to. I'm still your best friend and you're still mine. But I need some time for my feelings to go away or I won't be a very good friend to you.

#perspective #outlook #newlife